Afraid of the camera? Me too!

Ahh, the advancements of technology. Aren’t they awesome? I mentioned my love and appreciation for the Internet a while back here, and I really enjoy watching videos that others create to teach, coach and share their awesomeness. They are almost always fun and so educational! But, when it comes to me standing in front of a camera… Nope, that’s too much!

I’ve always been camera shy, I guess. At least that’s what my memories tell me. I always felt so self-conscious, especially while watching the photos or videos with me in them, even when I was a child! I always compared myself to others and I didn’t feel too comfortable in my own skin. And then, of course, my perfectionist went at it. Wrong clothes, wrong pose, not nice enough face expression, awfully sounding voice… My inner critic could go on for hours!

Of course, there are pictures I like that have me in them, but those are really hard to find. I can’t say that about any of the videos, though. Even the photos and recordings from my wedding day… I see myself in them as not looking good enough and I really didn’t enjoy posing, smiling and knowing, that there’s always someone with a camera ready to take another go at me and my husband. How weird is that?

Today, I decided to challenge myself and record something for you. One of the reasons for that is that I know that videos can be really powerful in conveying the message and showing someone’s personality. It is a scary thing for me to do, for too many reasons to list But I want to grow and conquer my fears, and this is one way of doing that.

So, below you can find a video of me… short, filled with some rambling, of crappy sound and video quality (because no matter what I did, my microphone wouldn’t change its settings and it was getting darker when I started to film). But it got done. It got published and shared with you. And yes, I am self-conscious again about a ton of things that my mind perceives as wrong with this little creation – but I’m silencing the fears and all those unpleasant, little voices and I’m hitting ‘Publish’

Of course, a question for you:

And how do you feel in front of a camera? Do you like being photographed and recorder?

*Image used – courtesy of Danilo Rizzuti at FreeDigitalPhotos.net